Well I think it is time to die, Jumpen.

Jumpen is me. I am Jason Jumpen. Or atleast that's my nick, Jumpen. Due to being a practitioner of Jumpstyle. Today I decided to kill my old self and come back new.. I still love jumpstyle, but nobody is with me to dance.. Life is empty.. So Im gonna drop most of what counts as my old life.. Do new things, become a different person if I can? I think the problem with me now is being too attached to people, too dependent on people.. I gotta change that.. It's time to shed this shell of pathetic, self-depressive, buckshit, whiny kid... Time to steel my nerves and harden my heart if you will... Time to stop getting stuck in the same cycle over and over again and feel so goddamned sad over so small a thing. Sometimes I wanna punch my self in the face for doing so many stupid things... Saying stupid things.. Being attracted like a honey bee to every little thing she does. Being able to describe and over-judge and panic over every little thing she does. While not being able to describe and judge myself for what i do. DAMM IT.